1. |
Spirits
03:18
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[Verse 1: Rowlan]
They saying never let your confidence
Outweigh your accomplishments
And never let a compliment
Skew your view of incompetence
A lot can happen in a years due time
Watch a peasant turn a legend I'm still not in my prime
Naive and different at the start
I guess they knew he'd be fine
I guess the warm up dunks impressed em'
He was jumping from line
Started shooting from three
Now they ask is he signed
I don’t know, but stuff like this man
Ain't' easy to find, it's time
Lets take it there
And announce some words that they won't expect
Let's talk real and see what fake people interject
Let's test my status, it's far from the time to rest now
I’m Rowlan, point blank
You should clearly hear who the best now
[Verse 2: Rowlan]
You see, my growth is consistent, can’t help but think that it's guidance
I got my hands on 12 o' clock, I’m not concerned with your science
Don’t try it
People looking down, and talk in disbelief, thats cool
But my family looking down and they gon' push me through
My pops escaped a genocide, I’m lucky I’m here
1940 back in Hungary had no room for the fear
My pops escaped a genocide, then hopped on a train
And then he hopped on a boat, without a dime to his name
And then came to States, and started fixing estates
And passed away a strong will, the money ruined the base
Probably 300k, I wasn’t left a single dime
And I was bitter at first, but hey it must be a sign
That I’ll be fine, and successful everything I own is worked for
All I own inspires me, to build myself and work more
Oh man I guess the questions when it stops
When planet is earth is mine, and we ain't getting killed by cops
Everything is gonna change, but when it's too late
As human beings, we just scared to face our own fate
It's okay to be afraid, but just never stop
For this verse I closed my eyes and let my grandpa talk
[Verse 3: Rowlan]
They wanna hear me talk jewelry, cars, money, and fashion
I owe the world my gratitude for things I imagine
Asking questions I shouldn’t, accomplish things I couldn’t
If it weren't for the doubt, and people thinking I wouldn't
Past too deep, emotions too real, to feel, through words
And so I spill my heart on well produced beats, and merge
Everything I want, is everything that I became
The class clown, turned genius, now headed for fame
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2. |
Intentions
03:34
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[Verse 1: Rowlan]
This life has gotten so deep it seems
It all started with a walk down the street
And down the street was a dream
I was determined to find
And the dream I searched to find
Made me one of kind
See, Little Tommy dreams
And Rowlan stays up to chase it
My complex urges, all merged
This life is basic
Growing up without it all, I should have known
That even when you famous, you still just all alone
Traveling fast to a place you never seen
Boy fame is right below
Just close your eyes and walk the beam
I used to look around the room to search for why
Now I float up in the sky and comfort clouds as they cry
Who would of thought I'd build a sound to get rich
And when I finally meet this karma
You think she'll go and switch
Life never really pans, the way you plan
And depending how you land
It takes a man to understand
[Chorus: Rowlan]
We all one, (We all one)
We all change, (We all change)
Watch the world as we find our way
We all one, (We all one)
We all change, (We all change)
Watch the time as it fades away
We all one, (We all one)
We all change, (We all change)
Never settle for the things you know
We all one, (We all one)
We all change, (We all change)
People go as they watch you grow
[Verse 2: Rowlan]
My best attempt
To try to reconnect the past
Riding my ghetto bikes
Doing tricks on Jan's Path
The daily routine
Of a star but yet to come
Even before I was
I told that mirror you the one
You here to lead something
Greater than you know
Watch how many people watching
Watch it multiply and grow
Watch the music that they like
Change into loving you
Watch the bucket list you made
Change to everything you do
Growing up
Without it all
I should have known
When you have it all
You still just all alone
Traveling fast
To where you wish to be
Focused on the vision
It’s the only thing you see
We all get to a place we feel is home
I’m still searching for that place, lost and all alone
Time change, people come people go, Life is fast calm it down and take it, slow
[Chorus: Rowlan]
We all one, (We all one)
We all change, (We all change)
Watch the world as we find our way
We all one, (We all one)
We all change, (We all change)
Watch the time as it fades away
We all one, (We all one)
We all change, (We all change)
Never settle for the things you know
We all one, (We all one)
We all change, (We all change)
People go as they watch you grow
[Verse 3: Rowlan]
Legendary starts when the doubt and fear ends
So, follow your heart and disregard all the trends
Your time is coming
Highs and lows let you know your human
Higher power has a plan
So just trust what you doing
You have a reason you been feeling
Like you onto something big
There's a reason not to question
All the crazy things you did
A constant search for what will connect the dots
Embrace where your at, but never forget the plot
[Chorus: Rowlan]
We all one, (We all one)
We all change, (We all change)
Watch the world as we find our way
We all one, (We all one)
We all change, (We all change)
Watch the time as it fades away
We all one, (We all one)
We all change, (We all change)
Never settle for the things you know
We all one, (We all one)
We all change, (We all change)
People go as they watch you grow
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3. |
Best I Can
04:06
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[Verse 1: Rowlan]
I write the lights out
And take mic out
I got my flow right
Right now
Oow oh, oow oh
I write my life down
And with my site now
I got my head right
Some how
Oow oh, oow oh
Hey
My life is different than the picture I painted
The painting deferred the pain or maybe thats how I drain it
Or maybe thats how I contain it, til' I spill it to you
You wrote me once and said I saved your life
You saved mine too
When depressing was resting
On my conscious like daily
I never second guessed my sanity
I knew I was crazy
But the crazy was good
Because crazy was Tommy
They try to force the pharmaceuticals
To reform, and harm me
But, I just did me and I dove into art
I started draining never seen the place I’m at from the start
But all in all, well this just a letter saying thanks
You take the words of imperfection and this the music it makes
[Chorus: Rowlan, Diana Inez]
They couldn’t hurt me
Or tell me
Or stop me
From saying the things that
I been through
They couldn’t hurt me
Or tell me
Or stop me
From saying the things that
I been through
So let me drain my soul
So let me live my life
So let me just be me
Until the end of time
So let me do my job
Let me find myself
I’ll do the
Best I can
[Verse 2: Rowlan]
Is it wrong to think that I can change a whole generation
I mean
My mind is racing, I’m impatient, and tracing my scheme
Finger on the trigger, winner spirit since the 90's
Metamorphosis morphing importance that I store behind me
Hey
I'm thinking far fetched, nothing is far fetched
Far fetching my dreams, it seems, the means, are complex
More complex than I thought
And I’m becoming obsessed
I’m lucky I have my art
From the start I been blessed
Hey
I play with words that curve and bend that shadows
I’m learning pretty quick the exposure is half the battle
The lighting ain't the lightening that I wanted to capture
But I still show the youth the truth
With hopes I make it through the rapture
But hope won’t do it, and neither will fear
And neither will arguing, of what they say is real
So accept the views then express you where you stand
I’m a single hit away from a spot that I’ll never land
[Chorus: Rowlan, Diana Inez]
They couldn’t hurt me
Or tell me
Or stop me
From saying the things that
I been through
They couldn’t hurt me
Or tell me
Or stop me
From saying the things that
I been through
So let me drain my soul
So let me live my life
So let me just be me
Until the end of time
So let me do my job
Let me find myself
I’ll do the
Best I can
[Verse 3: Rowlan]
It's a feeling I'm feeling the universe on hold
I'm here for a purpose searching for all the untold
My stress level's absent, I'm masking fashion and soul
But I'm cut from a cloth, that they never wash or unfold
Woah
This life is deeper than you know
For times they beat you down
Well that's the moment you grow
Don’t
Over think it man, thats just how it goes
Take the moments of your highs
And average those with your lows
Hey
Now that's life in a shell
And when they ask about your status
They ain't hoping for well
Hey
That's why I play these beats to drain
Everything syllable I write, release a decibel of pain
[Chorus: Rowlan, Diana Inez]
They couldn’t hurt me
Or tell me
Or stop me
From saying the things that
I been through
They couldn’t hurt me
Or tell me
Or stop me
From saying the things that
I been through
So let me drain my soul
So let me live my life
So let me just be me
Until the end of time
So let me do my job
Let me find myself
I’ll do the
Best I can
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4. |
Make It Through
03:44
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[Verse 1: Rowlan]
You see I tell em' I’m the greatest
Without cracking a smile
I see very few souls
That match how I move the crowd
I speak my peace and spread the love
And understand why I’m present
To make a story that the reverends
Use to profit off peasants
They call me God, next up
You the one, make a change
They put this pressure on brain
And say you asked for this fame
They say the run is far from done
The story has just been begun
You start as your mothers son
Then light the world with your puns
You have a message
You have a purpose
You saved my life
Back when I was feeling worthless
You give me too much credit
I can’t even take it
Said I was sent to change this place
Was he mistaken
So many stories to tell
So many things I should prove
So many people doubt me
So many mountains to move
Got world on my shoulders
It doesn’t stop me from climbing
I never fold under pressure
I just come out as a diamond
[Chorus: Rowlan]
Tell me everything that's on your mind, I
Tell you everything that's on mine too, We
Run together like Bonnie Clyde, but still
We can't seem to make it all the way through
2x
[Verse 2: Rowlan]
I'm from a small town
LA got me missing the burbs
But tell me why your favorite rapper
Still ain't living off words
Tell me why I'm 9 to 5
Then 5 to 9 never sleeping
While these people dropping verses
I would never be keeping
It's all timing and perception
And perception is fable
I'm just a dollar, nothing more
To people watching from labels
I pack a flow that no one knows
Will grow to pivot the game
I seen like 40 years in 20
Our view is far from the same
[Chorus: Rowlan]
Tell me everything that's on your mind, I
Tell you everything that's on mine too, We
Run together like Bonnie Clyde, but still
We can't seem to make it all the way through
2x
[Verse 3: Rowlan]
I feel the blues, I pick and chose
Which attitudes, I’m letting loose
I got my head to my beretta
Instead of tying a noose
Old friends with ammunition
Who’s the trader trying to shoot
I deserve it all I’ll take it
But lord I’m not what I do
Give me a sign and a place
Give me some time and some space
Give me some words to retrace
Who I was back in the day
I got a heart and a soul
Why can’t i just let it go
I got this demon on my shoulder
That I kill every show, whoa
[Chorus: Rowlan]
Tell me everything that's on your mind, I
Tell you everything that's on mine too, We
Run together like Bonnie Clyde, but still
We can't seem to make it all the way through
2x
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5. |
Forgiven
04:31
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[Verse 1: Rowlan]
I got this offsetting uncomfortable energy on my mind
I been at this seven years and watch family fall behind
I’m losing touch with my people
I’m growing good with the bad
I’m thinking less about others
Should I reach out to my dad
He missed, my whole childhood, who's really the victim
When I get rich I’ll fly him out, and say the 3 year old missed him
I never knew him as a man and I ain't prepared to lie
I just want his conscious clear, in case we meet in the sky
We won’t be father son
Although we look just alike
Let's have a friendship
Man to man, and just catch up on this life
Its crazy
Crazy things alot of nonsensical feelings on can haunt you
Just know that if I bring up the past it's not to taunt you
It never was, well maybe before
But now, I’m truly happy, and I’m actually mature
I understand things happen
And it's all love either way
I’m a product of your decisions
At the end of the day
[Chorus: Rowlan, Diana Inez]
It's not a time, no
It's not a place, no
It's not the season
Give me some space
It's not an maybe
It's not a how
It's a what if
They ain't feeling me now
2x
{Bridge}
If I told you all the things that was on my mind
If I told you all the things that was on my mind
If I told you all the things that was on my mind
You’d go crazy, crazy, crazy
[Verse 2: Rowlan]
Yeah I know, my vision ain't flawless
But I was raised by radio
When moms bronco was stalling
Slim shady, DMX, 50 Cent, and some Biggie
Got me through dark times I feel they went through it with me
I guess, to full circle Dad
The blame ain't directed
In your direction
I never stopped and blamed some neglection
I blame nothing on a thing
Things happened so well
I thank God every chance
I love how everything fell
I love how everything feel
Love when the struggle is real
I love when the people are fake
Love the excuses they make
Love when they say I ain't great
Love when I make a mistake
Love it alot when they love me
But love it most when they hate
I’m great
[Chorus: Rowlan, Diana Inez]
Its not a time, no
Its not a place, no
Its not the season
Give me some space
Its not an maybe
Its not a how
Its a what if
They ain't feeling me now
2x
{Bridge}
(Voicemail of father speaking)
[Verse 3: Rowlan]
Swear Destiny stuff is crazy
Leave me thinking I am too
I wrote this song last week
And guess who hit me out the blue
I was gonna ask my sis
Ashley, if she could get in touch
Then I received a voice mail
From my father man life is nuts
I’m convinced, everything happens all for a reason
Spoke to my dad and got caught up on a couple seasons
Talked for a few, we good, but will it ever be normal
And if they made a time machine dad, would you walk through that portal?
[Chorus: Rowlan, Diana Inez]
Its not a time, no
Its not a place, no
Its not the season
Give me some space
Its not an maybe
Its not a how
Its a what if
They ain't feeling me now
2x
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6. |
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[Verse 1: Rowlan]
Hey
To my fans right now, my life is looking perfect
And I’m happy every day
But there's still stuff below the surface
That I never show
But only cause there ain't a need
But let me tell you what I’m thinking
Ain't no money, clothes, and weed
I’m thinking lets get rich, so my family is good
Cause if you seen how we were living
You would think we in the hood
Little logic on my mind
Adrenaline pumping daily
You either high all the time
Or paranoia drove me crazy
I’m sick of the question
And I don’t wanna know
But if you really ain't high
Well then I’m proud of you bro
Hey, hey
And it's confusing but sometimes
I feel I’m to blame
Feel like you think I got it made
I put myself on this train
I know my start wasn’t as bad
Wish I could heal all that pain
But don’t think I didn’t work for this
We came from the same
Struggle
Robbing early, reminiscing is healing
Lets take em' back to the times
Before you knew all them feelings
I wanna start up the tours
And show the world you a king
I guess I’m scared to hear
That maybe you don’t want the same thing
[Chorus: Diana Inez]
Do you feel the heaviness
Weighing down your soul
Don't let these demons
From long ago
Feel at home
We got a past
And we got the scars
And we got the stories to tell
Through all the pain
And suffering
We'll find our way
[Verse 2: Rowlan]
My biggest fan is struggling
She called me up crying
We Spoke for like an hour
Said she wish she was dying
I know how it feels
But count up your blessings
And understand that these materials
Are nothing but lessons
Man, just take it
Beautiful kids, and a husband
Sixteen in trap houses
You can’t tell me you wasn't
You could have been dead
And money can’t bring you back
I know your blood pressure's high
So think of that and relax
But really, think about it
Analyze it all and breath
And before you get all mad
About this song listen to me
I haven’t said your name once
Your inspired my start
You brought this culture to my mind
And diversity to my heart
You know I’m gonna blow
More faith in me than myself
You watched this baby boy grow
To a man who can bring us wealth
And when this run over
You’ll have everything you planned
And you’ll look back at times I mentioned
Like I’m Tommy's biggest fan
[Chorus: Diana Inez]
Do you feel the heaviness
Weighing down your soul
Don't let these demons
From long ago
Feel at home
We got a past
And we got the scars
And we got the stories to tell
Through all the pain
And suffering
We'll find our way
[Verse 3: Rowlan]
I’m living good I guess, but not living great
I guess, I can’t afford things I want on my plate
I guess, the time will come where I ain't worried on rent
I guess, the things I want, will just arrive, when the time is meant
I guess a lot, I guess
But some things are certain
Until my mom is living like the queen she is
I’m working
Until the bills are paid, I’m focused on the frame
Thinking of ways that I can paint a picture
That'll change the game
Hey
I know it's in me
The legend breaking the surface
Verses changing impacting, making
Paving roads for the worthless
Purpose
Is what they tell me to call it
Mom go quit that nine to five
And tell your boss kiss your wallet
You raised me like a king
You gave birth to a legend
You taught me disregard the judgement
From a crowd to a reverend
And follow your heart
Cause I got faith in you son
Momma I promise you good
Now watch what your baby becomes
[Chorus: Diana Inez]
Do you feel the heaviness
Weighing down your soul
Don't let these demons
From long ago
Feel at home
We got a past
And we got the scars
And we got the stories to tell
Through all the pain
And suffering
We'll find our way
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7. |
Older
04:26
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[Verse 1: Rowlan]
You ever think about it
One day we’ll be old and slow
Reminiscing on the days
When the sky was low
The clouds were nothing
But the places that we planned to see
Now impossible is possible
It's meant to be
I’m meant to be where I am
I’m meant to leave when my time is up
All I wanted was time but
I understand why we never really had enough
Don’t apology when I leave
Just learn from it please
I didn’t have many wishes
Time was all that I need
I didn’t have much money
So I cooked instead
Banana bread was your favorite
You would please me and beg
Something small on your birthday
Neither happy or sad
But that’s, your generation I can’t even be mad
Feels like ten years, since we talked on the phone
But its only been five and I been feeling alone
You have so many different numbers
I tried calling again
I hope I get to see your father
Before I’m seeing my end
I used to love the way you listened
When I said we were Irish
Our roots are important
Never forget where our side is
Now everybody’s unfamiliar
Or maybe it's me
Or maybe the times approaching
When its time I should leave
Maybe the fight in my blood’s
Wearing off from the strokes
But, until I’m gone I’ll still be cracking these jokes
The end is near
Tommy I hope that I see you
Regardless of the side
Well I love you and need you
To understand
Life is all what you make
Even though we lost touch
I’ll still be holding the gate
[Chorus: Rowlan]
So
One day, (one day)
When we, (when we)
Get to meet again
I hope, (I hope)
That you, (that you)
Remember, my face
I said
One day, (one day)
When we, (when we)
Get to meet again
I hope, (I hope)
That you, (that you)
Remember, my face
And
When we get older, (older)
When we get older, (older)
When we get older, (older)
When we get older, (older)
2x
[Verse 2: Rowlan]
I hope I never let you down
While I was chasing my dream
I hope I take enough time
To ask about what you’ve seen
I hope I learn from your mistakes
And to see you soon
Text message from my mom
That says I probably won’t
She said you on your final breaths
All the way across the states
And time is mobile we learn
It never waits
Got me choked up
Cause even if I seen you
You wouldn’t say Tommy
You would think I’m there clean you
Dementia got you in another zone
What's even sadder is I haven’t tried to dial the phone
It hurts to think
That all you wanted was some time
And I never cared enough just to try
You used to pump me full of heritage
What I saw ranting but
Thats my history
That I took for granted
At this moment twelve am on the west
East coast three am, where you're probably at rest
I wonder if you good and
Can make it to see you
Did that final breath hit you
Now I feel like I need you but
That's life, we never want what they give
Grandma I love you, thanks for all that you did
I said, that's life, we never want what they give
Grandma I love you, thanks for all that you did
[Chorus: Rowlan]
So
One day, (one day)
When we, (when we)
Get to meet again
I hope, (I hope)
That you, (that you)
Remember, my face
I said
One day, (one day)
When we, (when we)
Get to meet again
I hope, (I hope)
That you, (that you)
Remember, my face
[Verse 3: Rowlan]
Hey when the time is up
Are you happy to tell your past
Did fear and hesitation
Make your climax crash
Did everything you want
Turn to all that you have
Did you take responsibility
Or blame mom and dad
Did you grow up and work hard
Did you raise you some kids
Did you tuck them in and love them
Or just say that you did
Did you grow to be somebody
That made an impression
Or another human
Diagnosed with depression
[Chorus: Rowlan]
So
One day, (one day)
When we, (when we)
Get to meet again
I hope, (I hope)
That you, (that you)
Remember, my face
I said
One day, (one day)
When we, (when we)
Get to meet again
I hope, (I hope)
That you, (that you)
Remember, my face
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8. |
Still Worth It
03:57
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[Verse 1: Rowlan]
Yeah it’s a crazy time
We been lost for generations
Cause
We care more about the picture
Then what the pictures saying
Yeah, hey
We in this place that nobody cares to see
The media controls the image you wanna be
And
I don’t know, I still remember as kid
The money or the hype, never controlled what I did
I mean
My mirror wasn’t perfect
I wasn’t no Bieber
My clothes weren’t new
Yeah they could have been cleaner
Could have had more friends
I could have ended my life
But, something hit me
When I clenched on that knife
I mean
All I thought is what my mother would say
If her youngest son left, she had enough on her plate
It was nothing that you did, I love how you raised me
But, somehow I still ended up crazy
[Chorus: Rowlan]
Hey, see
I don't wanna change a thing
I don't wanna change a thing
I just wanna let you know that I'm still worth it
Still worth it
Still worth it
Still worth it
Still worth it, still
2x
[Verse 2: Rowlan]
Whoever says you ain't worth it
Ain't worth it
You here for a purpose
And your purpose ain't a person
Do it for yourself
Show the world why you the coldest
You the best to ever do it
You the one, and you should know it
Let those scars you have
Remind you why you’re strong
Let the talk that doesn’t stop
Form a song
Let the song motivate you toward your dream
Then when it all full circles, you succeed
From the start
When I was down they kick me
From the start
I told the devil come and get me
From the start
I had a feeling I was strange
But strange to who
The world can re arrange
Think about it
Whats it matter what they say
Thats just another human talking
Trying to find their way
We stress opinions
And I’m still asking why
Cause In the end, its life
We all die
[Chorus: Rowlan]
Hey, see
I don't wanna change a thing
I don't wanna change a thing
I just wanna let you know that I'm still worth it
Still worth it
Still worth it
Still worth it
Still worth it, still
2x
[Verse 3: Rowlan]
I still remember the simple days
When life was fun
All I did was ride my bike
And play some 21
All I knew was fresh air
And good times
Not a care in the world
Just good vibes
Even then life was coming in quick
At 23, I’m 35, with the way that I think
So back at 14, going on 26
I tried to cover my emotions
But the front wouldn’t fit
And life was good
But my emotion were jaded
Friends were cool
Until the friendship was faded
And people have you
Til’ they need to be had
They love you when you good
But can’t stand when you bad
I question life
Is anything promised
I pray karma
Transform to a goddess
I pray my life
If nothing else is remembered
As a leader for my people
That will never surrender
[Chorus: Rowlan]
Hey, see
I don't wanna change a thing
I don't wanna change a thing
I just wanna let you know that I'm still worth it
Still worth it
Still worth it
Still worth it
Still worth it, still
4x
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